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Bukan, aku bukan membicarakan soal industri ekstraktif. tapi dalam memahami dunia.  Ekstraksi informasi. Sesuatu hal yang aku rasa menjadi tantangan bagi semua, terlebih langkah awalnya. Banyak situasi yang sebenarnya mendorong kita untuk mengambil poin-poin untuk kemudian diolah, direspon, dan dijadikan pelajaran/ilmu dan infromasi baru di realita kita. Hal ini yang entah, menyesakkan bagiku karena di situasi dimana seharusnya aku sudah handal, masih saja ini jadi hal yang membingungkan. Wait , siapa yang mengharuskan? kenapa diharuskan? memang aku sudah di situasi apa? Aku ada di situasi dewasa.  Source: WeKnowMemes/Pinterest Beberapa hal kemudian harus kita lakukan secara konsisten untuk bisa mengerucutkan tindakan menuju hal-hal yang kita inginkan. Bukan lagi sembarang menjalani hari, tanpa penglihatan jelas pada petunjuk-petunjuk di jalan, dan nir-evaluasi — seharusnya di tiap persimpangan, kita perlu menanyakan kepada diri sendiri, Tunggu, aku ini melangkah dari mana dan...

show up, efforts never betray you

 show up as best as you can. unlocking limits you think you have, step outside the line. 

yang pasti hanya dua hal

 kadang aku takut untuk memvonis suatu hal, claiming , atau memastikan bahwa apa yang kukatakan absolut benar. tapi aku rasa aku yakin akan suatu kesadaran yang baru-baru ini kuresapi, mengenai sesuatu yang pasti dan tidak pasti.  yang pasti hanya dua hal. pertama, kita lahir di dunia ini. kedua, kita meninggalkan dunia ini.  diantara dua lini masa tersebut, digelar banyak ketidakpastian. Inilah yang membuat kita sering merasa tidak aman, tapi pada saat yang sama juga mempersilahkan kita untuk merangkai garis kehidupan kita sendiri. Perjuangan tidak pernah usai,

sudden morning burst

 I'm 25, but i still wonder about things i experienced at 1 and 2 and 3 years old.  I practically only have less than 1,5 years of bond with my mother. No, she didn't leave me like a dramatic broken home people. But yes, I got left at 1,5 to be unable to recognise her again at 2. The sentence might sound like I blame situations, but I'm not trying to. It's just that I couldn't get things clear why I felt this and that. Maybe that's the reason.  I don't know; I'm still finding out. 

some thoughts i think today, 10.03.2025

اِلَّا الَّذِيْنَ اٰمَنُوْا وَعَمِلُوا الصّٰلِحٰتِ وَتَوَاصَوْا بِالْحَقِّ ەۙ وَتَوَاصَوْا بِالصَّبْرِࣖ ۝٣ except those who have faith, do good, and urge each other to the truth, and urge each other to perseverance. Writing is about imperfection, then write your mind. I decided to randomly pour things in here cause if I wait for perfection, it won't even start. It also refers to this particular Surah about Time, where we need to realize that time is passing, and we are in grave loss if we waste time to just pass by. We don't have to wait; we need to act. Align with the "So once you have fulfilled ˹your duty˺, strive ˹in devotion˺,".  Before knowing what to write here, I encountered to this quotes: "No matter your age, you'll always wish you had started younger. But today is the youngest you'll ever be." This urged me to just start to write anything. That's the exact meaning of we can't wait for perfection, it has to be built towards it. This ...

tonight it's a bit of Q.S Ghafir

هُوَ ٱلَّذِى يُرِيكُمْ ءَايَـٰتِهِۦ وَيُنَزِّلُ لَكُم مِّنَ ٱلسَّمَآءِ رِزْقًۭا ۚ وَمَا يَتَذَكَّرُ إِلَّا مَن يُنِيبُ ١٣ He is the One Who shows you His signs and sends down ˹rain as˺ a provision for you from the sky. ˹But˺ none will be mindful except those who turn ˹to Him˺. فَٱدْعُوا۟ ٱللَّهَ مُخْلِصِينَ لَهُ ٱلدِّينَ وَلَوْ كَرِهَ ٱلْكَـٰفِرُونَ ١٤ So call upon Allah with sincere devotion, even to the dismay of the disbelievers. فَسَتَذْكُرُونَ مَآ أَقُولُ لَكُمْ ۚ وَأُفَوِّضُ أَمْرِىٓ إِلَى ٱللَّهِ ۚ إِنَّ ٱللَّهَ بَصِيرٌۢ بِٱلْعِبَادِ ٤٤ You will remember what I say to you, and I entrust my affairs to Allah. Surely Allah is All-Seeing of all ˹His˺ servants.”

what's more to embrace?

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she heals herself, helped by those who loves her It's funny that I am 25 now. It's funny that I still survive, not only surviving but I am getting better a lot. Took some travel back to my old posts, to my teenage years, I doubted myself a lot and it seemed I couldn't see what I could see right now. It feels like, I really hug my teen self and say that it's going to be alright, everything is scary but you'll get through it, through help, through joy, through sadness, you just couldn't give in.  *Listening to The Closest Thing by The Juliana Theory* I am awed by my younger self who saw many things with deeper meaning, or at least tried to see the deeper meaning of things, and uncover what does it contribute to each step I took. A lot has happened, I couldn't believe that I still want to write here.. I guess this is where I can pour my mind, becoming my own journey of finding self.  Anyway, now I am a Consultant. I work in the energy transition field, in the G...