sudden morning burst

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 I'm 25, but i still wonder about things i experienced at 1 and 2 and 3 years old. 

I practically only have less than 1,5 years of bond with my mother. No, she didn't leave me like a dramatic broken home people. But yes, I got left at 1,5 to be unable to recognise her again at 2. The sentence might sound like I blame situations, but I'm not trying to. It's just that I couldn't get things clear why I felt this and that. Maybe that's the reason. 

I don't know; I'm still finding out. 



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