tonight it's a bit of Q.S Ghafir

هُوَ ٱلَّذِى يُرِيكُمْ ءَايَـٰتِهِۦ وَيُنَزِّلُ لَكُم مِّنَ ٱلسَّمَآءِ رِزْقًۭا ۚ وَمَا يَتَذَكَّرُ إِلَّا مَن يُنِيبُ ١٣

He is the One Who shows you His signs and sends down ˹rain as˺ a provision for you from the sky. ˹But˺ none will be mindful except those who turn ˹to Him˺.

فَٱدْعُوا۟ ٱللَّهَ مُخْلِصِينَ لَهُ ٱلدِّينَ وَلَوْ كَرِهَ ٱلْكَـٰفِرُونَ ١٤

So call upon Allah with sincere devotion, even to the dismay of the disbelievers.

فَسَتَذْكُرُونَ مَآ أَقُولُ لَكُمْ ۚ وَأُفَوِّضُ أَمْرِىٓ إِلَى ٱللَّهِ ۚ إِنَّ ٱللَّهَ بَصِيرٌۢ بِٱلْعِبَادِ ٤٤

You will remember what I say to you, and I entrust my affairs to Allah. Surely Allah is All-Seeing of all ˹His˺ servants.”

Reading a book requires your full attention. It won't just lapse as time passes; you need your full attention. Activate your brain to understand where it is going, and not only your thought to process things but to also feel things.

It happens the same when we want to absorb what's happening in our life. To capture the whole moment and read the room, we process things with our knowledge in mind and feelings. I would say we also have to have knowledge of feelings (I can argue, but this is written in the Emotional Intelligence book). 

Today's prayer told me to trust the higher divine a lot more. That's why I'm searching for a supporting Ayah, to strengthen my belief system towards uncertainties circling around today's mad world. "I entrust my affairs to Allah." I've been trying so hard and feeling so frustrated to keep things going. Indeed, there should be a sufficient amount of effort needed before entrusting fully, but man, oh man, these things are beyond my control. I don't know where I should pick things up.

Uncertainties in life make me unable to decide, fear of unintended harm affecting others, unable to see what I actually want, or must do. Days are just getting harder, though I am a lot more mature and in tune with my feelings, it is still a hard time. When situations knock you to the corner, the only thing that remains is to just entrust things to nature, to the spirit, to the higher energy beyond yourself, knowing and believing they'll protect you. 

You deserve better, and you need to earn the meaning. 

Forever, by your side

nhr.