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Hal ini sering terjadi di hidup kita. Malahan selalu terjadi. Semuanya harus melalui prosedur keputusan. Karena di dunia ini banyak pilihan.  HELLO PEPHUL! It has been a big week for me. I recently faced a pretty bizarre days that you know, i don't really think i could face it. I'm a 17 years old girl, a senior high school student, and in another 10 months i will have to be a different person than i am today, because i will face the 'SBMPTN' in order to get into a college. Yes, the preparement and consolidation of myself is very essential and necessary to be start from now on.  What me and most friends do in this kind of days is searching for the best 'courses'. In chosing which courses is best also needs a good research. Skip skip skip on to that part, and at the end of the day, i believe i made a mistakes. People, when u're dealing something that might need sacrifice from other people, please becareful. Don't ever let it be a form of deficit...

Holding something, when you were still a kid must be something that's a bit hard. Especially when you are still a baby. You still have no idea on how to use your muscles properly in order for you to hold something. You're still weak, vulnerable, and cute obviously. Haha. Even, eventually you'll be able to learn how to hold something with the energy and good synergies of your muscles and brain and blabla where i don't really need to explain haha because it's an automatic response from the brain. Yes, but eventually when you're one, you can hold your own bottle or glass for you to drink, you can hold and bring something to a different places, you'll be able to hold something with a firm holding As well as when you're growing up, the word "Hold" will be aplicated into a more complicated things. You need to hold your ego, hold your lust, wants, feelings, emotion, and with the different context you need to be able to hold your principe, hold yo...

Ada yang bilang, melepaskan itu melegakan Seperti kamu melepaskan diri dari suatu ikatan Terlepaskan dari suatu jabatan Terlepaskan dari amanah dan beban Melepaskan dari suatu genggaman Melepas sepatu bahkan juga melegakan Melepaskan seperti itu yang melegakan Namun bagaimana jika genggaman itu nyaman? Bagaimana jika ikatan itu indah? Dan terpaksa dilepaskan Disitu ikhlas bertindak Diharapkan diterima di hati para penderita Bahkan telah memberi jaminan semua akan lebih baik Tapi manusia memang tak pernah puas, tak mau menunggu Apalagi yang terjebak dalam kegelapan Namun, Percayalah akan adanya istana megah yang sebelumnya tanah Percayalah akan adanya pencapaian yang sebelumnya kegagalan Percayalah akan adanya keutuhan yang sebelumnya kehilangan Karena ini sudah saatnya..... nhr [So sunny and Bright day, Yogyakarta] originally 11.08 AM, 6/14/17

Jumped on to excitement when i found out, my boyfriend passed the test for college (SBMPTN 2017) With shaky hands and teary eyes i couldn't believe, the prayer i just praised few minutes before i received the news is exactly the same.  He's the guy that i told you on the prior post. He's the guy that helped me through my thick and thin. He's the guy that is always excited on to games. He's the guy that is always loud! haha He's the guy that drives me home from school [but not anymore:"(( ] or take me out to see the destruction of my city ahahha. He's the guy that had just accepted in Internation Relation Universitas Airlangga 2017 ladies and gentlemen!!!!  Damn! I couldn't believe even when i saw the proof. It's just wow. While there are also others who didn't get accepted yet they studied harddddd. Men he wasn't. He didn't specially go to course for sbm, he didn't specially study for sbm the night before, and he obvio...

It's been a while, but things hasn't changed. Significantly. _____________________________________________________ Hi, everyone. Whoever read this blog. Let me introduce my self for a prologue, a pretty pathetic  ordinary girl who has so many dreams and wants but done little to get near to it. Unaware of how she became the girl today, simply wasting most of the time of her life in the past few years. Likes to underestimate herself, yet knew it isn't a good way to at least appreciate the presence of herself. Accidently put those personality inside the mindset like a seed flew to the ground and indirectly planted, but never knew it was watered each days. Being reckless on to something that is very essential. Who should i blame?  Recently, i am trying to arrange the time during my junior high school until my senior high school phase, where i mostly ever felt changes in my life. Such as, being on the bottom in the class, unable to recognize other people's f...

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SO. Meet me again, in the end of the year. Again and again, in the end of the year or in the beginning of the year. Okay, as you all know it's 37 more hours until it's officially 2016 and what do we usually do during this year turn-over? Making resolution, setting target, introspection of self-attitude, re-gaining motivation, self-commitment for being better, and many more. Guess what i'm going to right now? Yup right, i'm gonna review how my life went in this past 12 months.  It comes as no surprise that i am a already a senior high school student right now, who's considered on being in between adult and teenager or even in between children and teenager. This phase happens in each person. Then in this time, our ability to recognize which one is right, which one is wrong by our own sense is increasing, through experiences, mistakes, and learning. This phase is the right time for us to start being individual, to not following the rules because of we've bee...