Fresh New Start

SO.

Meet me again, in the end of the year. Again and again, in the end of the year or in the beginning of the year. Okay, as you all know it's 37 more hours until it's officially 2016 and what do we usually do during this year turn-over? Making resolution, setting target, introspection of self-attitude, re-gaining motivation, self-commitment for being better, and many more. Guess what i'm going to right now? Yup right, i'm gonna review how my life went in this past 12 months. 

It comes as no surprise that i am a already a senior high school student right now, who's considered on being in between adult and teenager or even in between children and teenager. This phase happens in each person. Then in this time, our ability to recognize which one is right, which one is wrong by our own sense is increasing, through experiences, mistakes, and learning. This phase is the right time for us to start being individual, to not following the rules because of we've been told to follow it, but follow the rules because we think it's the right thing to do. And that, needs time. Somehow, this time is the time where i choose to re-build the system inside me. Because, why not starting since now? Rather than to start it in time when everyone else think i should start it. 

Okay, there are so much that going on in my head right now. Where to start this writing.....

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Basically, the writing above was written in 30th December 2015, as you all know from the counting hours. And yep again, couldn't accomplished my mission to write a post and publish it right after i wrote it. Couldn't tell you how many drafts i have. And it's not more than 2 paragraphs. But, let me just get over of how lazy i am and how i can't complete my target all the time, and start to focus. 

Right! That's it. Focus. 

Reasons why people are so lazy or so easily get distracted by other thing is, because they're not focus on what they're doing. But, btw Happy New Year 2016!

Okay, i wanted to review how my 2015 went. Since i was a child, i wasn't really aware or paying attention on how my attitude was, or what i learn, or lessons that i get from my problem, or anything. Basically, i just didn't pay attention on my life. But, since i'm growing up, i realize that i need to find things, solutions, ideas, learning, moral value of life ON MY OWN. And "on our own" is not an easy things to do. The other day, i saw Jaden Smith's video on youtube, expressing his viewpoints of being individual person, it's called MSFTSrep feat. Jaden. He explained how a baby learns, how could a baby become like us today? How can a baby we used to be can become a person that we are today? Because they were mimicking, they mimic their parents, they mimic people around, they mimic everything, Until, a baby can reach the point where they can do anything by them self through learning and practicing. Until they can speak words or statements from what they're thinking, from what they're feeling not from mimicking again. 

And my 2015 was the time, well in the last few months of 2015, i realize that i have to stop mimicking people around. Well, not stopping, but to start aware of which person should we mimic, which person that could take us to who we really are, what positive things i can take from environment around. There are so many people in this world, with so many different personalities. So, through them we can select people's various personalities that are match to our personality. And through them, we have to set up our own personality so that later we can call our self as an individual person. 

Wait a minute, i have to dig more on what's the individual person means.....

Individual - Meaning a person who acts in the way they want to and is not bound by the sad rules of society, live life for filling goals for their self-esteem. These people do not conform to the 'masses' and are therefore swarn enemy to the common Townie etc... An individual has their 'own' mind and seeks enlightenment through completing personal tasks set by themselves and are not influenced by someone else's opinion simply because they are 'popular'.

Okay, as i learned the statement above, i think people can see it in different perspective but, let us just see it in a positive way. From my point of view, being individual is something that we need to be. BUT. I kind of disagree about the fact that individual person only thinks about them self, act in the way they want, do whatever they want, WITHOUT thinking of other people's right. I mean, being individual is supposed to be something that fortify yourself from getting influenced by other people's opinion or people's likes and dislikes, Because none of us are the same. Especially, as a young teenager like us, we as a person, as a human being, we already have the right to chose our path, our decision, our will. Adults around us like teacher, parents, friends, or even our grandparents only have the right to advice us, not to rule us. Why i said again? Because since we were a little, they already rule us, they already made us following their rules.

And again, not only from parents but also environment around, like friends, school, or what's the common problem for teenager? drugs? free-sex? Dude, if we are already an individual, i guess we won't get influenced by the environment around. You know, a lot of cases, a lot teenager get involved in criminal or teenager mischief is because some of their friends ask them to join, and if we're already being an individual we won't get easily influenced by them. Well, that happen, if the person itself knows which one is right and which one is wrong. But i guess, being individual is not supposed to be doing something that could bring harms to other and the person itself so yeah...and i think we still have a lot of young generation that have the ability to think more advanced and developed, so i'm sure we won't get involved in such a mischief cases.

But you see, a lot of parents haven't trust their own child to walk alone. To find things alone. I mean, well yeah i agree we haven't think as great or as mature as they are, but hey let us find our own mature thinking, attitude, and way of life. You all parents are always there for us, and i know you always will be there for us, but that doesn't mean that you have to rule us the whole time. That's. So i guess, to all parents, let them be free.

You see i just want to share my story, since i was in junior high school, i never been so naughty. But then, i went to high school, i think i am not naughty either, but people around me? Think i became someone who didn't obey the rules. Like sure, i don't want to obey the rules, because these rules, blocks my way from finding adventure, socializing with new people. Dang. Why do i still think that i'm not a naughty girl like what people think i am, because i don't do anything that considered as a naughty girl, i simply just adventuring to new places and found new knowledge. That's it. Plus i have fun doing it. That's it. Do i even gives harm to others? No.

I know, i simply think like this. Because that's how i feel, when i think it's not right, then it's not right i don't wanna do it. But when i think it's right but it simply break some moral or ethic rules, but gives no harm, gives no loss, instead it gives me more confidences of my ability or it gives me more adventure and knowledge, i think that's totally fine. That's how an individual supposed to be. Well, at least that's how i think an individual supposed to be. But the kind of great individual person is someone who's still open minded of things around.

So be your own self. Be yourself! Be it! Be the one and only you! Be individual. Be better. Be more mature. You're facing a whole lot different zones, Lady. Welcome to 2016.

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So i guess it's not a review of my 2015 instead of me giving opinion of individual person haha. Well i guess that's it for now. I'll see you on my next post. Au revoir!