Vehement

As I hear the rain pouring and classical piano playing in Youtube streaming. I feel some kind of energy running through my body. If I can see the aura, I might see colours changing around me.  I honestly can't really describe how I feel. But I'll try. to make you, the you that will read this, understand.  I feel like I'm in the middle of the rain, but still under the roof. Cause the sound of the rain is quite obvious, means it touches surfaces. or objects. I feel like my heart is quite heavy, once I saw this picture of "unlearning things". It said several things that human needs to unlearn, in order to develop themselves. Everything written there, I still do.  how to unlearn things?  I feel so, weak. I can't control and I'm too dependent. I want to be independent and believe in myself. I do I really do, and if you ask me if I'm confident enough to say that I can and will survive, I AM confident. But the things is I'm just too scared to make the fir...