Vehement

I believe to change one's life, one must experience the hurt and punishment. and perceive that and accept that as a punishment, fair punishment. Thus you can't be too forgiving, you can't be too cruel.  Fairness. Equality.  Fairness changes life. changes the way the person sees life, responding to life, sees themselves, see surrounding, especially the way they treat people.  I have come to a realization that I am not a good person, all these times actually. But I thought it yields from my unfortunate experiences and have turned me into a numb person. It's not. Well, maybe technically yes, but it means that I let unfortunate experiences change me and make me a cruel person, while I had the capacity and will to control.  I cannot be this person, especially towards people I dearly loved. someone I dearly loved who had given their best and all the love.  I don't continue to wake up in the morning for this, I am not given the chance to breath to be a coward. Everybod...