Vehement

 isn't so hard to be yourself? without getting accused of being too self-centric? i really can't prioritize my self for a few phase of my life, aren't I?

 what is my choice? even in the very state of losing my mind, I'm bothered to choose. Ive given the time and place to chose, but I still are not confident enough to chose. Thinking that my choice is bad. Underestimate my decision. Cause it always turns bad. does that mean I can't choose? does that mean I'm afraid to be free?